Why power is gained slowly

Life can interfere with the gaining of energies, as in other people and idea. They project at you to use things in self control, where power sometimes requires the freedom of choice. Part of the control is to denie some effects that are to become of energy use. So they fear it and project to your subconscious suggestions, to not actually use it, the energy. Thus it seems like its not there, as you expect to see the effect to prove its there, oftentimes missing the point of when your power manifests.

This also accounts for your thought of the control and be free approach, where you attempt things, but don't always get what you desire, so you oftentimes forget that the manifest happens. Very curiously, it will seem like the power wasn't there. So you see, you do have power over certain things, but thats about it. Its just haltingly slow, as normal people's subconsciouses have more power than it seems.

If this makes sense to you. The way around this is to break the energy 'threads' that tie you to other people. The force of them pushes you and molds you into the shape they intend. To get around the subconscious suggestion, is to master your ego.